Story of Ananya in her own words - concluding part





Well kai baar Anay se baat karna chaha par wo mujhe avoid karta raha , aisa laga jo aasani se mil jaye uski kimat kabhi samajh nahi aati maine bhi ab usse manana chhod diya . 12th ka last month tha saare student tour par jaane ke liye plan kar rahe the  mujhse kisi ne nahi puchha tha kyonki in the class Anay hi mera dost tha maine bhi kuchh nahi kaha . 2-3 din baad wo mere paas aaya and usne offer kiya un sab ke saath chalne ko mujhe nahi pata tha ke haan karna chahiye ya na par maine haan kiya main waha comfortable feel karu isliye Anay ne waha Vinay ko bhi bulaya and pyaar bas badta raha (meri side se) .

Din nikalte gaye samay bitta gaya schooling bhi khatam ho gai ab Anay mujhse fir kabhi nahi milne wala tha , aaj marksheet milni thi fir kabhi is jagah laut ke nahi aana tha Anay mujhse bhot pyaar se baat kar kar raha tha marks milne ke baad usne fruity pilai and McD le gaya sab kuchh bhot achchha lag raha tha then bas sham hui usne mujhe ghar drop kiya aur chala gaya fir kabhi na aane ke liye . mujhe bura laga par zyada nahi kyoki Vinay mera abhi frnd tha and still main usse bhot pyaar karti thi waise age main wo mujhse bada tha par harkate wo bhi idiotic hi karta tha par main uski compony enjoy karti thi , wo mujhse daily milta tha kyonki schooling ke baad maine course join kiya tha aptech main aur wo bhi course kar raha tha donno kaun sa par wo daily mere institute ke bahar se jata tha and kai baar mere saath time bhi spend karta tha and main humesha usse aur zyada pyaar karne lagti thi hum apni har baat share karte the.


4 saal kab beet gaye pata nahi laga now 2008 january uska course complete hua and usne us raste par aana chhod diya hum bas phone par hi baat karte the usne job join ki aur phone par bhi baate kam ho hoti gai is baar wo mere birthday par bhi nahi mila job ki wajah se par usne wish kiya and nxt day chocolate bhi laya ek din pahle tak mood kharab tha par ab achchha lag raha hai.


2008, 5, october uski engagement ho gai usne bataya tha ke parents ladki dekh rahe hai par main kar bhi kya sakti thi (pyaar itna zyada ho chukka tha ke na to usse batate banta tha na hi usse chhodte :’(    )


8 december uski shadi ki date thi 2008 wo abhi bhi mujhse kabhi kabhi milta tha even uski shadi ki shopping bhi humne saath main ki usne mujhe saree bhi gift ki uski shadi ke liye . Mujhe nahi pata wo feeling kya thi na to jiya hi jata tha na hi maut aati thi . 9 decmber 2008 12:30 am Anay ka call aaya 2 saal baad main to shayd usse bhul chuki thi usne kuchh nahi kaha bas dantne laga ke tumne vinay se bola kyon nahi mere paas koi jawab nahi tha kyonki maine kabhi ye chaha hi nahi ke wo bhi mujhe pyaar kare maine to bas apni side se kiya bina kuchh chahe shayad yahi galti ho gai!!!!!


Shadi ke kuchh din baad Vinay ka call aya wo ek sapne jaisa tha wo bhot pareshan tha wo apni wife ke saath khush nahi tha us din mujhe bhot bura laga usse khush na dekh ke socha usse khush rahne main uski help karungi usse uski wife ke gifts le jane ko kahti movie tickets bhi le ke deti time ke saath saath Vinay ne adjust karna sikh liya .


Shadi ke kuchh din baad Anay mujhse mila mujhe dantne ke liye par aisa kuchh hua nahi wo mujhse mila and (wo akela tha jo meri feeling ke bare main janta tha ) wo kuchh kahta usse pehle maine usse hug kar liya and rone lagi bichara Anay bhot der tak mujhe chup karata raha par main nahi manne wali thi gussa apne upar tha , 4 saal se vinay ko bina bataye aise hi pyaar karti rahi (apne aapko galiyan deti rahi) well Anay jis chiz ke liye aaya tha usne wo bhi kiya mujhe danta.


Vinay mujhse 5-6 months main ek baar mil leta tha and once in a month baat bhi kar leta tha
Anay mujhse har month milne laga usse laga main akeli hoon(idiot, par main sachchi main akeli thi)and phone par bhi kafi baaten karne laga u know mujhe ab kisi se bhi baat karne ka mann nahi karta tha main khud ko busy rakhti thi kisi na kisi chiz main par fir bhi wo mann se nikalta hi nahi tha chahe kitni bhi koshish kar loon 


“kahte hai pehla pyaar aur pehli cycle bhulay nahi bhulti”
Mujhe to kabhi cycle bhi nahi mili thi to pyaar to pakka hi nahi bhulne wali thi!!!!!
Din bas bitte rahe Anay meri care zyada karne laga aur main usse avoid karne lagi ab agar Vinay ka bhi call aata to main pick nahi karti thi socha shyad isse usse bhul paun?


Ek din ghar pe movie dekh rahi thi “life in a metro”(thoda funny hai par isse mera pyaar aur bad gaya and ek chhoti umeed mil gai jeene ke liye) . Movie main 5-6 stories hai un main ek story hai jisme ek boy apni beloved ko 60 ki age main aake apne pyaar ke bare main batata hai and humesha uske saath rahne lagta hai.


Pata hai ye dekhne ke baad ek umeed aur bad gai ke shayad main kabhi usse apne pyaar ke bare main bata paun aur ab bas ek hi chiz ka intezaar hai apne budhe hone ka………!!!!! (I know ye idiotic hai but true hai) 


And Jab aap kisi se pyaar karte hai to bas apni saari zindagi ussi ke saath jina chahte hai aur main to bas apni zindagi ko uske saath khushi khushi khatam karna chahti hoon taki zindagi se kabhi koi shikayat na rahe  
Am still waiting for the right moment

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